Thursday, March 14, 2013

Affirmations for Spiritual Safety and Keeping a Strong Connection with God

1. I know that false appearances are everywhere. I need God's Light to penetrate false appearances, see reality, and act positively. I will keep the lens of my heart smudge-free to receive all the Light of God that I can receive. I don't want to block or reject any of it, wittingly or unwittingly. I don't want smudges on my heart's lens to block God's Light and invite darkness. Therefore, I will not think or say anything about God, except what I personally and clearly understand from a reliable source. I know that every false thought or statement about God is a smudge on my heart's lens that blocks the Light and invites darkness. To be on the safe side, I will just accept that I cannot really have any concrete idea about what God is, except that God is nurturing, perfect, good, fair, etc. This means that I trust God with blind trust, and this is safe and okay, I really have no choice in the matter.

2. I will not trust anybody else blindly. I need to check on everybody else's intentions before I trust them: They need to prove their intentions, show that what they suggest is good, correct, and useful, etc. I know that everybody except God can be sometimes open to darkness. I don't grant anybody other than God absolute power over you. I don't have false gods.

3. If I hurt someone in the slightest way, then I will regret it as soon as possible, and I will start repairing the damage immediately. At the time of doing harm, I am open to darkness. I will make such moments as short as possible.

4. I will never fail to act against, speak against, or at least feel against any injustice (wrong done or duty missed) and also against all those who are being unjust, even if they are my elders or loved ones. When I am aware of injustice, then I am open to darkness until I take a stand. I will stay informed and take a stand. It won't shield me to stick my head in the sand, or to plug my ears, or to be lazy at finding out what is happening to others, and to me! I will not be partisan.
There are priorities and exceptions for 3 and 4. For example: If I choose the lesser harm of two choices (when there is no third choice), then I am still shielded from darkness.

5. I will avoid arrogance, ego and even simple pride. I know that all that is the very character of darkness, and therefore, it invites darkness.

6. I will avoid denial, defensiveness, and dishonesty. I know that all that is also the very character of darkness, and therefore, it invites darkness. I will admit everything to myself. 

Note: (6) is a consequence of (5).

7. I will never feel the least discomfort with anything God says or does, because it is all Light, and if I am not comfortable with any aspect of Light, then I will automatically be comfortable with darkness. I will accept what has happened and what must happen. I know that my wrong attitude can open me to darkness. Instead of doubting what God says or does, I will doubt my own understanding of it and seek clarification through prayer and contemplation.

8. I will not feel safe from the consequences of harmful things that I think, do, or say. I will hope for forgiveness and the best outcome (Heaven), but I will remain conscious of the worst possible consequence of my wrong actions (Purgatory or Hell). I will not have the least rejecting attitude toward the law of reward and punishment. I know that my wrong attitude on this law can open me to darkness.

9. I give all credit for positive AND negative things to God alone. I never doubt for a moment that God has complete control over everything at all times. I know that God is the one who lets all things happen, positive or negative. I know that the end effect of God's work is always positive.

I will never think that darkness has any real power, because that thinking would open me to darkness. I will never forget that even darkness cannot do anything without the permission of God. 

I will never attribute events, success or failure to people's efforts or mine, or the lack thereof.

I know that even my own will and my own efforts do not happen except as God wishes them to happen. I know that from God's point of view, I have no free will.  I know that no one and nothing really escapes God's will. I also know that from my point of view, I have free will, and I am accountable before God. I don't question how God does that.

10. I will not trust or open my heart and soul to family or friends who violate any of the above affirmations. I need to have a screen of caution between me and them. I know that at times of violations, these people are open to darkness, and that I will also be open to darkness if I have an unconditional bond with them. I know that there is an open energy channel between me and those to whom I open my heart and soul, and that both Light and darkness can flow through this channel. I will carefully choose who I hang out with! I know that even being physically close to a person who is open to darkness will expose me to darkness.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013


solomon prayed to God
to give him such power
that no one shall ever have

God said to solomon
if you can fulfill
the meanings of the sounds
of your name, SLM
then you shall have your request

SLM means "hand over"
can you hand over
all your affairs to Me?
can you abandon all desire
to have control
over others and yourself?
can you surrender completely to Me?

SLM means a "ladder"
would you allow me
to lift you or lower you
to any height or depth that I wish?

SLM means "unshared service"
do you pledge to serve me
and serve no one else
not even yourself?

SLM means "self restraint"
will you restrain yourself
from harming your soul?
will you leave all creatures
unharmed and in peace?

SLM also means "wholeness"
can you devote yourself
to wholeness and health
for yourself and the world?

when solomon fulfilled
the meanings of his name, SLM,
God gave him the power
to understand and to control
all creatures and all forces of nature

and solomon, true to his promise,
only used this power
according to the meanings
of his name, SLM

my heart's light

my heart is not moved
by big words
or small music

my heart will only dance
to a song well sung
strings well plucked
strings caressed
choir chords
well tuned

inside my heart
lives a shimmer
long kindled by sparks
from a source unseen


oh i yearn to touch the source
of my heart's fire

sometimes i have a hunch
who it is

sometimes i can feel with my heart
who it is

i'd like to see with my heart
who it is
that lit my heart


come sisters and brothers in the light
sing with me
dance with me
shine your shimmer on me
lend me some glimmer


i promise to breathe
from my heart, a breeze
to wake up the fire
and return the favor
a glowing ember


i am worried if you don't
lend me a spark
that my lamp would grow dim

i'm afraid
some corners of my heart
would be in the dark

shadows would sneak in
and steal my heart
from the light


when i was in high school
the english teacher
gave us a homework

he said: please write
a poem with meaning
about an eraser

i looked at my pencil
and its eraser
and started thinking

a friend of mine
a violin player
made a proposal

he said he has
a great idea
about a poem

he asked my help
because his english
was very bad

we sat together
and wrote a poem
about an eraser

the thoughts were his
the words were mine
and there it was:

"this life will test you
you may shed tears
after the laughter"

"i fell in love
she broke my heart
she loved another"

"how can i survive
such a disaster
without an eraser"

"how can i forgive
and cleanse my soul
without an eraser"

"thank you, dear God
for all the testing
and for the eraser"

the english teacher
said: the best poem
was by an imposter

he scolded my friend
and punished him
and called him a cheater

i said, dear teacher
doesn't your heart
have an eraser?

we meant it well
a beautiful poem
we wrote together

the teacher refused
he held a grudge
scorned me forever

i left the class
i studied russian
in the year after